Sirs and Mams, thanks for your time and efforts and my apologies for bothering you all.
My sincere apologies to my Beloved Master whom I hurted in this process.
I should have discussed with him first, rather than taking the help of forum.
Master generously cleared the misunderstanding and I will Read more… continue to have trust in him as I did in last 12-13 years.
Master I beg your pardon and request you to accept me again as Your slave.
Thanks all for descriptive replies.
it has ended between us. Only response to all my questions was ‘only shared a pic for my lower half not face’. He kept quite otherwise and at last said ‘it’s my choice alone if moving out’.
To answer the other questions, email’s screenshot was not about my Read more… feelings but reporting if following daily rituals.
Another question that most asked, how I found out. During last meeting I found out his membership on one of the bdsm website. When I asked him then about it, he replied ‘It’s pretty old account and he doesn’t use it anymore’. That account too revealed pic of my back and legs to other members.
Few months later I visited that site to check my pic, to find him online there daily raising my suspicion. I again talked to him about this. He replied ‘he does visit site at times, not regularly and I shall trust him and he is looking for 3 some’. I accepted it but was still doubtful.
So I created account on that site, upon joining like other members, his message too was there seeking my submission.
I chatted to him for less than a day, and he shared email screenshot saying this is how he expect reports and gave me a task to do. When I asked if he got any pic to guide in task, he shared pic of my lower half.
In past too, he used to share many such headless pics with me of unknown gals to me.
I know I too must have used wrong means to find truth, but what shocked me most is his lack of effort to stop me from going away or to give me explanations.
Was I expecting something wrong from him, were my expectations of privacy too high? I without heart accepted that he will chat and meet other gals, but I could not withstand lies.
Also earlier I sent him message from my husband’s phone in emergency, which I asked him to delete and he agreed. We both know about each other’s family and r Facebook friends too.
During last meeting I found message lying in his whatsapp.
Where I went wrong? Feeling doubtful if I am too emotional and should have enjoyed bdsm life with him?
Or it was best to move out? Missing him already 😞
Thanks a lot Sirs for your guidance here.
Need lot of courage to face Master today to talk and walk away. Hope won’t get extreme emotional to stick to him and to talk strongly which is against the nature of any sub that too with her most precious Master.
phoenix name is right, cheated and used by Read more… one Master, to be used by 2nd and to be cheated again
Perhaps BDSM world is not based on trust but only selfishness and misuse
Thanks for your reply.
Yes he agreed and also said ‘what shall I do by keeping them’, also he shared screenshot of my daily email report with others, which even though didn’t show my real name but my nick name
At the best, you're not happy with this - and it should be flagged so you can both move on (together or apart)
if you are infatuated enough to turn an eye on him breaking your limits, he'll end up doing it again - accidentally or otherwise whilst it's possible there's nothing that can't be wrong : he has broken your trust.
At the best, you're not happy with this - and it should be flagged so you can both move on (together or apart)
if you are infatuated enough to turn an eye on him breaking your limits, he'll end up doing it again - accidentally or otherwise
My heart sinks at the lack of respect or love you have for yourself by apologising to someone who uses the term ‘Master’ but sadly this is not any kind of respectable Sir, he has ***d your trust & ***d Read more… his role as a Dom.
You are willing to once again give the gift of ownership to one who has shared photos of you without your permission & spoke to others yet lied to you about it.
I really hope you learn to realise how important & powerful you are as a sub & stop allowing any ‘false dom’ to control you. YOU are in control of you & only you.
One day a true Sir will come along, one who will be honest & true & show you how important your submission is to a relationship & he will take you away from this other false guy & show you what true trust & respect is.
Good luck x