Your issue isn’t the orgasm in itself its the inability to relax and stop your mind from getting distracted,
just take your time and don’t worry about the orgasm forget about it don’t focus on the end goal but enjoy yourself put something sexual on screen or read something that turns you on and Read more… just play without any end goal
you are good enough, nothing that your doing is disgusting, y ok u know this though it’s just anxiety playing up be logical and you’ll get there, I think at the moment having a partner who is sexual with someone else is also detrimental and even though it isn’t true it’s added concern on top of concerns you already have
Find yourself again, your beautiful your obviously intelligent and your sexy you’ve just got accept that and believe it
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