Bunny, Part 7

[ReddRabbit]

Next installment of the series - from my upcoming book, “Bunny”. Enjoy, and thank you all so much for your kind comments, and for reading my story!

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People will often ask me, “but weren’t you jealous, how could you share someone like that? Is everyone in the Kink scene like that?” The answer is, no, not really, and no again, although it’s certainly more common than in the vanilla world. 

The thing is, Nick and I didn’t have any reason to be jealous. We felt that sex was something to be shared, joyously and with no sense of possession or covetousness – and although those feelings may have snuck in once in awhile, we dealt with them. Because what we did was all about each other. The other people we played with were incidental. Or business. We never took the occasional bout of irrational jealousy seriously, or out on each other – instead we shook it off with humor, talking, and incredible sex, as opposed to surly silences and resentment.

Even now, nearly ten years later, it was the most ideal arrangement between two people I can imagine. Something most rare; Allowing oneself to love and be loved, without limits or ***. 

And no, we didn’t have to have a third party all the time. Plenty of times, we were happy with just each other’s company. But there was always a level of Kink involved, and our experimentation was endless. That’s just in our ***. With Nick, I was able to completely let go and find my submissive side like never before – and he never ***d it, never pushed me too far…just took me to the absolute limits of my control, showed me how far I could go. He dominated me completely. But he never made me feel ***d. With him, I found ecstasy in surrender. 

And with me, he allowed, for the first time, a woman to take some small measure of control. It was a revelation for him, I think. And perhaps a new sort of kink. And for me, watching him orgasm beneath me was the hugest turn on of my life – especially knowing it was something he didn’t grant other women. 

When you give something new to a partner in BDSM, when you break down barriers, you form a bond – and our friendship was stronger than ever because of our sexual relationship. We had our sub clients. We had our girls we’d play with. We’d fuck, and lay in bed and talk philosophy or books or what have you. We were as crazy about each other’s minds as we were about each other’s bodies. We were insatiable.

It felt like we were built for each other.

He loved watching me reel in a potential playmate for the night, and then Dommeing her in the bedroom; I loved watching him make them writhe in pleasure as he fucked them, right before he fucked me. We didn’t introduce men into the scenario, and frankly that was fine with me. I didn’t need or want that. We both enjoyed Domming the women, that was what we got off on together. 

Admittedly, it was an unusual arrangement – and probably not one I’ll find again. But it was ideal. It was two personalities, two intellectual, emotional, and sexual types coming together perfectly.

Being able to separate sex from one’s emotions isn’t within everyone’s wheelhouse, and there’s no shame in that. For whatever reason, we simply were able to do this with each other. I had subsequent, more vanilla relationships where I absolutely would not tolerate sexual infidelity, because I knew that for the man, sexual fidelity equaled emotional fidelity. You rate these things on a case by case basis. 

Each relationship is unique, and very different. And is treated as its own separate entity. I don’t expect to repeat what I had with Nick with anyone else, necessarily. It was a glorious, burning comet that flashed through my life – the trail of which still burns in my retinas. 

Some people – some experiences – leave an indelible mark, and Nick is one of those. I look at all of my relationships through a lens colored by his presence, even though we are now separated by an ocean. And I believe it’s made me, ultimately, a happier person – although it’s admittedly left many men wanting, as I perhaps don’t give the sort of clinging, worshipful adoration that so many of them seem to crave. I give plenty of space to breathe. But because of Nick, I do demand consistency if I’m with a man, and I won’t tolerate ambivalence. He taught me to expect to be appreciated – for my beauty, for my mind, and for my weird, kinky sexuality – effusively, and regularly. And I’m willing to give that back in return. That, and plenty of sexual intensity. Perhaps too much for some. It was never too much for him. 

I was never too much for him.

I don’t feel the need to possess people, or expect one single person to fulfil all my needs in a relationship. I believe in open communication, and honesty. I believe in humor and experimentation. If I find myself getting mired down by one person’s bullshit, for whatever reason – be it boredom, or loneliness, or simple emotional attachment – all it usually takes is one conversation with Nick to sort me out, and remember who I am. 

Some things stain us forever, for better or worse. In this case, I believe Nick saw me – and helped me become more who I truly am. We are and will remain kindred spirits, and that’s a rarer thing than you might think. 

To be continued...

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The fluid expression of pure passion. Simply stunning !! 😍😍

[Mickey10]

Red you are one amazing woman in touch with reality caring just a beautiful lady love everything you share your experiences inspire others beautifully written again thanks

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It's a rare coupling of reciprocal trust and respect. This builds real strength that unlocks surrender and is where our real power lies. Magnificent xxx

[ReddRabbit]

16 hours ago, MissLou19 said:

The fluid expression of pure passion. Simply stunning !! 😍😍

Thank you so very much, MissLou xox

[ReddRabbit]

11 hours ago, Mickey10 said:

Red you are one amazing woman in touch with reality caring just a beautiful lady love everything you share your experiences inspire others beautifully written again thanks

Mickey, I appreciate your kind words more than you know. That’s all I can hope for. Thank you! xx

[ReddRabbit]

5 hours ago, Tigress said:

It's a rare coupling of reciprocal trust and respect. This builds real strength that unlocks surrender and is where our real power lies. Magnificent xxx

It’s rare, indeed - something to be treasured.  It’s a power that stays with us. Thank you so much, Tigress!  xx

[Deleted Member]

ReddRabbitt I admire your bravo with releasing your written work. I have written a 660 page autobiography that I’ve yet to release as well as a true ***/part II continuation. But they sit on there drives partially edited and unpublished .

[Deleted Member]

A lot of typos in that! Ugh great job autocorrect 🙄🙄 and their printed there. Just so you know that I’m not completely illiterate.😖

[ReddRabbit]

15 hours ago, NailsPLZ said:

A lot of typos in that! Ugh great job autocorrect 🙄🙄 and their printed there. Just so you know that I’m not completely illiterate.😖

Lol oh, don’t worry, it happens EVERY SINGLE TIME I post something, haha! 

It’s hard to put yourself out there, I know.  The first time I submitted something for publication, I nearly threw up!  Just give it a go, rip off that bandaid...💜