Targetted for Domination

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I've had most all my relationships evolve toward femdom.

Looking back I can see the women have sensed I'm submissive and accepted me for dating on that basis though I was in denial, pretending I was a stud.  In spite of my fake bravado, they knew.  I guess my inferiority feelings based on a way less than average dick was obvious to them.

At first, they'd let me try to fuck like I was a real man, but gradually shifted me to one-sided oral service.  I'd think the sex was great.  It was for me because they weren't even getting hot so I had plenty of friction unlike some women would get hot and juicy to the point I couldn't feel anything with my small penis.  I'd cum pretty quick after giving a little preliminary head and then insertion.  They'd typically fake mild ooh's and ahh's and I'd try to believe I was doing it for them.

Some would start to show their hand in some talk though I was oblivious.  They might tell me how gentle I was or that I had a big head (fake arrogance) or even ask if I had a gay side.  I guess the give-away was that I would take such comments in stride and discuss them reasonably instead of being insulted like a real man would.

The most extreme case, after one of my best efforts, having shown no reaction while I fucked her, said, "Go down on me so I can cum too."  As I ate and swallowed her juices and my cum, she introduced me to her orgasm.  I loved it.  Next she sat on my face and told me to  "Get all your cum out and don't be afraid of my ass hole."  She orgasmed more and more as I complied, loving it.  She finished up by smothering more for some really major orgasms.  When I reached for my dick she said, "no".  When I tried to touch her breasts during face sitting, she swept my hands away with another firm "no."  I was hurt, but then enjoyed it, admiring her dominance.  (to be continued)

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When she swung off my face and rested, i still had not cum, but was excited and thought that we had reached a new level of intimacy.  I talked a blue streak about the experience.  She said nothing. 

I revealed how how enthralled I was with her large bulging clitoris, how I loved swallowing her juices, tonguing her tight clean asshole, and her severe smothing and even when she held my nose shut, slapped my face and spit on my face "for lube" at times. 

She only subtly encouraged my talk with smiles.  She alternated between a vacant look and a big smile.  Occasionally she laughed in a way that almost bothered me. 

I fully expected she would give me a hand or blow job as a reward, but, instead she said had a lot to do next day and would appreciate it if I would "be on my way" so she could get a good rest.   I was shocked, but quickly recovered while she smiled oddly. . .I wanted to believe her smile was gratituded and left for home and the best masturbation I'd had for years. (to be continued)

Edited May 22, 2020 by Deleted Member

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I rushed back in a few days when she had something for me to do.

She appeared fresh from a bath in her robe and we headed for the bedroom.  I reached for my belt, but she said no, we don't have time for that.  Don't ***l back the bed either.  Just lay on your back.  She lowered herself, straddling me opening her robe.  "Oh, wow," I said as I saw her large protruding clit lower towards me.   "No, I'll handle that.  I need you for my asshole."  She swung around, spread her muscled butt and landed her asshole on my mouth.  "Get deep with that tongue.  I'll have a special treat for you."  As she played with her clit she alternated between smothering me in her ass and pounding down unmercifully on my face.  Soon she had a powerful orgasm and I felt her wetness drip on my chin and shirt.  My dick struggled in my jeans.  "Be back she," she said out of breath and left the room.  "Get undressed and in the bed."  (to be continued)

Edited May 23, 2020 by Deleted Member

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I undressed and got between the sheet.

Soon she was back with her short dumpy girlfriend Gwen.  Gwen was nude.  "I told Gwen to get you off,"  she said adding "She gives a good blow job."  I've got to got to get going.  I was stunned and got up to confront her even though embarassed showing my small dick.  "I don't want Gwen.  It's you I want."  She retorted in an exasperated tone.  "Gwen loves to suck dicks and get fucked.  You need to get off."  And away she went.

Reluctantly, I got into the bed with Gwen.  Quickly she started sucking on my embarassinly small penis, but was getting no where.  I was too upset.  Soon she said, "I don't like your dick."  I got dressed and left.

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Next morning I called "my girl friend."   Before I could say anything, she said she was really sorry about what happened with Gwen.  "I thought she would suck and fuck anyone."  I was confused, but I shouldn't have been. 

She signed off with "You're still my lady!" which apparently referred to the time she sang the song by that title to me after a facesitting session.  I still couldn't get over the desire to think we had something really beautiful and intimate going.  I had the little erection going I couldn't get with Gwen and soon was squirting my little puddle.

Edited May 24, 2020 by Deleted Member

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It is hard to grasp how specifically I was targeted.  When we met, I made the first approach or so I thought.  I was attracted at a party by her tall slim figure and tight muscled butt.  That in itself might have keyed her to the fact I had a small penis and could be a target for submission.  She smiled and turned seeming to display her butt.  I approached her and whispered I'd like to suck her pussy.    I couldn't believe I was so direct.  I'd never been in the past.  She asked for my phone number and she wrote it on a scrap of paper from her bra.

When we  finally went to bed after some entertainment dates, remembering how we met, I started by giving her some head.  Looking back, she wasn't even aroused as I had no hint of her very large clit. 

When I began to change position, she said, "Be careful, I have some female issues."  I said don't worry, "i'm small."  I couldn't believe I said that.  After I entered her tight slick hole, she said, "You got a big dick."  I said hey, "No way, I've been in locker rooms, you know, don't bs me," in a jovial way.  No response.

Edited May 25, 2020 by Deleted Member

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A few days later, I dropped by to find her gone, but found several of her girl friends chatting in the living room.  It was quite some time before I realized they were all lesbian subs for my girl friend and jealous of me (and each other).

Soon their conversation drifted to guys with "little dicks", how embarrassing they are and what fools they could be.   One recounted how letting a small guy fuck her made her feel "so bad" about herself.  She always regretted giving a little dick guy a chance.

Yeah, it was Gwen, the one I was offered later.  But there were dozens of remarks from the girls.  I didn't focus on that one at the time.

I was suspicious hearing this disturbing talk so soon after my small dick discussion with my girl friend, but dismissed it as paranoia.  I knew some types of women like "small dick humor" and let it go.  I was too happy with my girl friend.

Edited May 25, 2020 by Deleted Member

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The only other broaching of the dick size topic was another time "the girls" were present when I dropped by to see my girl friend.  One of them said, "You two are together so much, lately!  Knowing you, he must have a nice big cock!"  My girl friend laughed and appeared to blurt accidentally, "He's not big!" and then covered her mouth like she didn't mean to say that.  Turning to me she said smiling broadly, "Opps, I'm sorry!"

All the girls laughed and laughed, chortling about "little secrets cum out" and so on.   I was hurt that time, but tried not to show how I felt.  My girl friend had a huge smile and finally admitted, "You all know me too well!"

Edited May 25, 2020 by Deleted Member

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Getting back to more or less sequential events:  in spite of the fiasco of not being able to "get it on" with Gwen, I continued to provide my girl friend oral service.  We evolved to a style in which she used a riding crop during the face sitting sessions.  She said my efforts were too haphazard and I need the discipline of *** whenever my efforts failed to meet her standards.  She kept me in a constant state of *** and anxious to please.  Some days she would get frustrated and get off from pure sadistic ***.  Her orgasms were so good that way, I could hardly complain.

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For some reason, she still wanted to be sure I orgasmed.  Apparently, she didn't want me to wander to others or dissipate in masturbation.   After she was satisfied, she would send me to the bathroom and listen to the plop plop of my cum into the toilet.

Probably the climax of our relationship was when 3 of her "old friends" stopped and she submitted to a gang bang,   She whispered with them when they first arrived and then they all laughed.  I gathered she told them she just wanted me to watch.  The guys were  all well hung and arrogant, talking about her like a whore.  Like in a porn movie she kneeled while they poked their big cocks at her.  She held their cocks admiringly, stroking and often catching my eye with a big grin.  She sucked and played with them, deep throating each effortlessly several times.  They all shot big a load in her face or mouth.  Cum dripped everywhere.  She had a big smile in spite of some hard facefucking and nasty name calling.

Soon they fucked her in turn.  She often complained on entry, but soon was grunting out of her mind as they fucked on and on.  They'd just say things like "you can take it" when she complained.  They'd egg each other on. . .  One guy tried to fuck her in the ass, but she wouldn't let him.  Seemed like it took forever, but finally they were done with her.  She went back to sucking their cocks and balls.  They told her to up the mess.  She said "have some heart" mother fuckers, but licked it up anyway.  They called her more nasty names.

They left and she headed for the bathroom.  My head was reeling, but my little dick harder than hell.

 

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After a hot bath she returned to me in bed.  She said, "I owe them ***.  I wanted you here because I don't trust them.  Sometimes they tend to get abusive."  Gosh, what was that, I said.  I was amazed you submitted to that.

"Oh, I don't mind a good fucking once in a while," she said matter of factly.  Too often they fuck me in the ass too.

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Ok, I was interrupted and failed to apply even my typical writing skills to the last couple posts.

Apparently, there is no way to edit or delete past a cetain point.  Anyway, my psychological self-analysis is pretty much complete.  I don't have the stomach to complete the "blow by blow." 

Suffice it to say, only a 50 Shades of Grey style beating brought me to my senses.

Edited May 27, 2020 by Deleted Member