'That sub jumps from one Dom to the next'

[Runrunrunaway]

I won't love you from the start.

I wont need you to look after me in any way except with attention and intimacy.

You can guarentee that if you leave me, i won't look back. I'l move onwards and upwards.

If you back away, il do the same.

I'm a strong, independent woman. I've seen more than my fair share of emotional trauma and overcome difficult situations and dark times. I got this.

I dont need you.

But

If we are in something, if im talking to you, im obsessing over you.

In a healthy way.

I talk about you to my friends.

I think about you and what you're doing.

Im genuinely interested in how your day is going.

I make up scenarios in my head, sometimes dirty, mainly clean.

Meeting my friends

My family.

Nights snuggled in front of the fire

Christmas markets.

Holidays.

Day trips.

Things we will try, cook, eat, enjoy together.

I think about what you like and how i can incorporate it into who I am.

You will be my sole focus out of family life. I will plan my free time around you.

I will be loyal and loving.

Excited to see you, speak to you.

Il look after myself a little more because you are in my life.

I will plan events and kink things for us (in my head)

I will imagine a full life spent with you, what it would look like.

I will give myself to you in so many ways you will never know. Because I wont tell you all of this. You don't need to know all of that, and i will never ask anything of you. I won't push to do those things, I wont expect anything. But they will be there. In my own head.

If i see myself with you, I see it all.

Is this a flaw?

Probably.

It means I get hurt because I lose not only a partner but a whole lot of potential.

But you know what? I'm alright with that.

I'm ok with being naive and positive.

I'm happy with the way I see the world.

I will carry on giving myself freely. Giving away the whole of me with abandon. I cannot give little parts of me away anymore. I am who I am. Someone once said to me:

'Youre a funny beautiful ball of kinky naughtiness, beware as I’ve told you before whom you give it to'

Nah. Im not going to change for anyone.

You will be my world, and one day I will find someone who wants me to be theres. But until that day, I wont change. Lifes too short.

[Qu****]

Struck a chord with me. Great insight, thanks for sharing

[slavewife]

Wow amazing ,really feel this and find myself resenating towards a lot of it as this is so me as well 

Thank you for sharing xx

[Ky****]

hope to find the same