Am I really submissive or just messed up?

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Messed up

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2 hours ago, FabSeverus said:

Messed up

You do make me laugh 

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25 minutes ago, Messedup79 said:

You do make me laugh 

Well, you are on the mend then 😈

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On 2/23/2021 at 12:08 AM, Messedup79 said:

 

 

 

 

When I read your post, I feel with you, this is why I love this community, as I was reading everything I read it 3 times more why, well because you are telling a story that really hits me, your story is almost exactly what I have been experiencing crazy even to the point that it feels like your writing about me. So please don't feel bad that you rumbling, you never know when it may hit someone and help them. Your story is important you are important your life, your story my help more then just me to heal, maybe it hard core feeling that I share but it comes from my heart, I have only been awake to the real me sens 2019. 

So I am happy to coming across your story and many other it's help more then you may see. So thank you for sharing part of your lifestory and asking this question, I asked them as well.

I happy I found this post from you. I hope you will find the answer you looking for. 

 

Be safe

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21 minutes ago, Newtothislife said:

When I read your post, I feel with you, this is why I love this community, as I was reading everything I read it 3 times more why, well because you are telling a story that really hits me, your story is almost exactly what I have been experiencing crazy even to the point that it feels like your writing about me. So please don't feel bad that you rumbling, you never know when it may hit someone and help them. Your story is important you are important your life, your story my help more then just me to heal, maybe it hard core feeling that I share but it comes from my heart, I have only been awake to the real me sens 2019. 

So I am happy to coming across your story and many other it's help more then you may see. So thank you for sharing part of your lifestory and asking this question, I asked them as well.

I happy I found this post from you. I hope you will find the answer you looking for. 

 

Be safe

Well thank you. It makes me feel reassured about my sharing and at times over sharing... 

it’s good to hear you are finding a sense of yourself. I am getting there slowly. To be honest I think I’ve been consumed with Shame and emptiness for so long that it leads me to doubt my desires and the things that make me happy, instead of embracing each moment and not always trying to dissect and make sense of everything.

 

Thanks for reading 

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What I went through took me almost 30 years to process for me it was because my self-esteem had become destroyed, today I know that my event made me traumatized.  The key for me was to share my story to someone I was maybe lucky i don't know but my fist step leed me to this site and I am stil grew to today. 

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People have given a lot of support. My two [coins of a small denomination] is don't be afraid of evolving. I've been into kink my whole adult life and also into personal development [psychotherapy, psychiatry, 12 step etc] my whole adult life. I've lived through more trauma than I care to mention and worked hard on changing unhealthy patterns. For me personally, all that work hasn't taken away my kinks. It's made me stronger, happier, and able to be myself. Ain't always rainbows and whip marks, but hey we're all worth some self care.

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I think it is good for you to both wonder why you are interested in something and to put it up here so other people who might have something of value to offer you might do so. You didn’t ramble and you even quoted a 21st century tragic icon! And I am really pleased you have got out of that toxic relationship. You can now find some space to work out who you are and what you want. Just take your time. It isn’t a race.

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6 hours ago, Liccian said:

I think it is good for you to both wonder why you are interested in something and to put it up here so other people who might have something of value to offer you might do so. You didn’t ramble and you even quoted a 21st century tragic icon! And I am really pleased you have got out of that toxic relationship. You can now find some space to work out who you are and what you want. Just take your time. It isn’t a race.

Patience is something I definitely need to work on... thank you for your kind words. I’m sure there’s a Plath quote about overthinking too, but it evades me this morning...

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On 2/25/2021 at 12:45 AM, BroodyJudy said:

People have given a lot of support. My two [coins of a small denomination] is don't be afraid of evolving. I've been into kink my whole adult life and also into personal development [psychotherapy, psychiatry, 12 step etc] my whole adult life. I've lived through more trauma than I care to mention and worked hard on changing unhealthy patterns. For me personally, all that work hasn't taken away my kinks. It's made me stronger, happier, and able to be myself. Ain't always rainbows and whip marks, but hey we're all worth some self care.

I think my really stifled my personal development so I’m on catch up. I’m a 40 year old who missed out on being in her 20s and 30s. The years when you realise who you are and what you want were spent dismissing the self for the other. If that makes sense... 

 

but I like to think I’m a quick learner, when I’m not going round in circles in my head... thanks for your 2 clubs ☺️

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On 2/24/2021 at 7:55 PM, Newtothislife said:

What I went through took me almost 30 years to process for me it was because my self-esteem had become destroyed, today I know that my event made me traumatized.  The key for me was to share my story to someone I was maybe lucky i don't know but my fist step leed me to this site and I am stil grew to today. 

Self esteem, worthiness, that’s what I have lost, or failed to ever achieve maybe. I know it has to come from me and some days I feel like I’m nearly there...

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4 hours ago, Messedup79 said:

Patience is something I definitely need to work on... thank you for your kind words. I’m sure there’s a Plath quote about overthinking too, but it evades me this morning...

You are a very smart woman. You are a thoughtful woman. You also write very well. So you have a lot going for you. Now you have the space to put those qualities into action I believe you will come through this. I, and many others here going by the comments here, are cheering you on!

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1 minute ago, Liccian said:

You are a very smart woman. You are a thoughtful woman. You also write very well. So you have a lot going for you. Now you have the space to put those qualities into action I believe you will come through this. I, and many others here going by the comments here, are cheering you on!

Perhaps that is all I ever needed? Encouragement... I’m not sure I’ve ever had much of that... 

Thanks again for being so kind ☺️

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Thank you for this. I feel the same way. I like being humiliated and beaten by dominant women.