Just want to be beaten brutally

[Rasenkyugan]

I am a rather young guy and having been obsessed with femdom for years now I have become excessively frustrated with my fetish. There is some kind of psychological impact the fetish is doing on my life coz rn I am a mess. My life is fucked up, I am angry all the time and rn all I want is ***. I am done with self harm. Rn I want to be brutally beaten by a girl. I just want to be completely smashed in my face and guts just so that I can feel *** and I might feel less guilty about how much I am fucking my life up. My obsession for femdom has mixed up with my insecurities and now I just feel horrible.

Seriously all I want is to be punched in the face by a girl. I don't know if I make any sense.

[Deleted Member]

No judgement but IMO kink should be only practiced in a safe, controlled space, that includes your headspace if not it can get out of control, recommend talking to people or seeking a professional to help

[Deleted Member]

Been there many years ago just makes you so much worse in the long run, my choice choose another fetish 

[ey****]

This isn't a healthy BDSM structure you're seeking.  You don't need a Domme, you need help with your mental health.  Please seek it, for your own good.

[Deleted Member]

Honestly dude I can seriously relate to how you feel as I have been there. However you're confusing your interest in femdom with your desire for self harm which is not healthy.
Right now your mind is lashing out from your internal *** and you are attacking yourself.
The best advice I can give is to speak to a specialist or even your GP/doctor.
There are people who can help and as you get help your desire for legitimate femdom will become more clear and separate from your desire to self harm.
What's more once that happens you will most likely find Dommes more willing to engage with you as no responsible Dom/Domme will want to play with someone who is trying to harm themself.

[Deleted Member]

It sounds like you have hit rock bottom with negative thoughts consuming rational thought. I’ve mentioned pressing the mental brake pads before and you need to find your personal coping strategy before you end up in a dangerous position. Go swimming, running, biking etc wear your self out with physical exercise and you will start to feel much better. Replace bad energy with a positive desire to improve your aurora and then you can explore bdsm in a safe environment.

[BaritoneSwitch]

I want to echo what everyone else has already said to you. I haven't been in your exact position but I've certainly had moments of intense self-hatred, and I know how much it sucks.

First off, I'd suggest that you try to limit how much time you spend looking/listening/reading any material about femdom. If you do that and stick to it, you will start thinking about it less. It'll never go away but you can make it less prevalent. Which you really should do, so you don't strengthen the unhealthy associations you're currently building with self-loathing and femdom. It'll make it much harder to engage in healthy BDSM play down the road, and I guarantee that any domme worth her salt will smell it on you right away. You can come back to it later when you're in a more balanced mental state. I respectfully disagree with magical-soul, you can never choose to let go of a fetish. But you can make sure you only engage in your fetish in a healthy, positive way.

Secondly, this is great advice.

On 3/7/2021 at 3:50 AM, TAROTT said:

It sounds like you have hit rock bottom with negative thoughts consuming rational thought. I’ve mentioned pressing the mental brake pads before and you need to find your personal coping strategy before you end up in a dangerous position. Go swimming, running, biking etc wear your self out with physical exercise and you will start to feel much better. Replace bad energy with a positive desire to improve your aurora and then you can explore bdsm in a safe environment.

Really wish I could've learned the value of exercise to your mental state sooner than I did. But incrementally making improvements to your body really does help you make incremental improvements to the rest of your life. If you're looking for a guide book on how to do that, I would suggest looking up Jocko Podcast on Youtube. He's a former Navy Seal who has basically turned himself into a pretty bad*ss life coach. Some people find him too intense, and that's totally fine. But it's done wonders for me.

Getting professional help really is a good idea when dealing with mental health issues as serious as yours. For some of us, I know it can be a slightly humiliating thing to do. But it really can help. At the very least they can give you some tips and tricks that you might not thought of yourself.

If you want someone to talk to please shoot me a PM. We're all pulling for you buddy. Please take care of yourself!

[so****]

On 3/7/2021 at 10:02 AM, midxplorer said:

No judgement but IMO kink should be only practiced in a safe, controlled space, that includes your headspace if not it can get out of control, recommend talking to people or seeking a professional to help

Totally agree 

[Deleted Member]

I agree, you need to seek some mental health advice rather than looking for a woman to punch you in the face. The bruises won’t make things any better