Silly?

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I wake early to blue sky and the sound of birdsong and crashing of waves. There’s a forest to the east and the ocean on my door step.

 

I’m somewhere faraway and fresh and new but it’s a place I’ve always known.

 

I think I’m alone.

 

The window is open and I close my eyes and let the outside rush in to wake me.

 

I wonder if I will still be alone when dusk caresses that open window. I wonder if I care.

 

In the kitchen now, I put on some happy sounds and dance in my little pjs like I have an audience as I make my tea. The boiling water entices me to spill its heat all over my chest. But I resist. Because I’ve grown strong.

 

The tea pot and cigarettes are outside with me on the veranda now. My companions. I inhale deep and let my head rush with nicotine. 

 

The ocean rushes and retreats before me. Inviting me to my beginning and end. I wonder if today is the day.

 

Time to savour my tea, as its hot liquid lingers on my lips. The last drag on the cigarette so much better with the heat on my lips.

 

It was still early and as good a time as any for a swim. 

 

There seemed no point in dressing for my date with endlessness.

 

No need for any belongings.

 

So barefooted, I head across the sands to the ever shifting point where the waters embrace the edge.

 

And all I can hear is the soothing sway of the sea and the chatter of the birds as they fight for their place in the sky. The air rushes into my chest, full of noise. And I rock it in my arms until we are one.

 

I wouldn’t have noticed a single trace of humanity in that moment, as I discard my clothes like an excited child and walk all sultry into the sea.

 

Mmmm

 

We whisper as our bodies meet at last. Like a homecoming.

 

The icy arms sting as they wrap  around me until the *** brings heat and my body awakens.

 

How far should I swim? I wonder What if I go out of my depths? But I feel carefree. It felt good, and I’d gladly drown in the ecstasy of the deep than thirst on the shore.

 

‘Lady!’ A voice brings my eyes back to land.

 

A shadow waves frantically at me.

 

I had been just fine until that very moment. 

 

The disturbance causes me to lose my synchrony with the sea. It begins to tear at my arms, holding them fast so I can no longer fight it. 

 

And I realise I am not  ready to drown. 

 

The shadow discards his shirt in a rush and runs into the ocean.

 

My mouth fills with salty sea, my lungs stop fighting. And everything turns to black.

 

Until it becomes blue.

 

Blue sky.

Sand bed.

 

And the frustrated and perplexed look of a man.

 

‘You are a very silly girl’ 

 

‘Hmmm’

 

Is all my mouth can muster as I suddenly become aware of my naked body, bruised from my dance with the ocean.

 

I sit up and wrap my arms around myself.

 

‘It’s a bit too late to be shy’ He kind of laughed. I’m not sure what the laugh means.

 

‘I think these belong to you?’ He waves my pjs in front of me and then snatches them away. ‘Would you like them back?’

 

It is my turn to frown. 

 

‘Don’t frown, I asked you a question!’

 

‘Yes Please Sir’

 

I don’t  know why the address came from my mouth.

 

But it is greeted with a knowing little grin. 

 

‘Get dressed’ he throws the pjs at me, almost cold.

 

I do as I am told. 

 

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Beautiful

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22 minutes ago, Boo-69 said:

Beautiful

Thanks ☺️

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I’m so happy to read your last few posts Raven and I truly hope that you are starting to find peace again 🌹🙏