Confused newbie cuck

[Ind46140]

So me and my wife have talked about several different scenarios and past experiences prior to getting together.  We tried swinger and adult sites trying to select either a cpl or single male for several years.  Most we chatted were either not our type pr would flake when it came time to meet. I was always interested in hearing and turned on by her past experiences.  Most of which happened when she lived  several states away from where we both grew up and where we currently live.

 

So I would say my interest in the cuckold  fetish came from hearing about her mfm  and being fucked at a party and people saw. But the one that really got me going was her telling me about mutual acquaintance that she fucked several times b4 we got together.  And that he had a massive cock. And was the only guy to make her squirt. Well I began to think about his big cock in her and  knowing that she had experienced and felt a big cock, it became a very frequent cause for me to jack off.  I wanted to see it and see really how big it was.

 

Well one night I had come home from the bar with friends and was very drunk. I was flipping thru social media and saw he was online.  His number was listed in his profile.  I was very nervous about the thought of anyone we knew finding out what were into. So I cropped her face out of several of the nude pics I had of my wife and sent one to start. He immediately responded and asked who I was. Again,  I never had any intention in telling him it was her, and definitely not saying it was me trying to get a pic of his cock. So I responded back and told him it wasn't important and just enjoy the pics I was sending  and that he should reward me with a few of him.

 

So I sent a few more pics and he was really digging for a name or at least a first initial. Yeah that juvenile.  But I had obsessed about this for too long. I just replied,  and said an old friend. He said well one name came to mind when I saw her tits. My wife had a full D  fake tits and big and really dark nipples for a white girl. He immediately said her name. I was scared af. I said no. He dropped a few more names. I finally said it's not important.  Send a few more pics of my wife. And said no more til I see him. He immediately  responded with a couple pics of his cock.

 

I just wannt say. I've never had any thoughts of a guy. I've always considered myself as an alpha male. I was special ***s for 8 years.  Ok, so that's out of the way. I opened up his pic and my cock started throbbing and I just saw my wife taking that in every way he wanted.  I came prolly 10 times in a short time that night.  Finally I passed out. Oh and my wife is unaware that I was contacting him acting like her. So the next morning I woke up early and hung over when the wife and kids woke. I completely forgot about what I had done. A few hours later, my phone dings. I look.

 

It's a text from him. It said I'm pretty certain this is my wifes name.  Wtf did I do. I responded,  with I'm not sure who that is and it's certainly not my name. He went back to wanting a name and all that. Even with the *** that I had, a few days later and still very turned on by the thought of knowing how good he made my wife cum. I sent a few more pics and this went on for a few months.and I became more turned on and was to the point where I wanted very badly to just say that it was indeed my wife and and move on to hearing him talk about all the ways he fucked her.

 

Well , the *** of being exposed and him telling in our pretty small home town what were into or him showing people her pics scared me. Well some time goes by and I had been at  an annual fantasy football draft. And got pretty drunk again.  Well once home I sent a few more pics of the wife and wad sure I had cut out anything noticeable.  Well being drunk I missed one that looked like the back of her head and just sent it. Immediately he said I knew it was my wife. I looked at the pic again and very clear shows the side of her face and could easily tell its her. Being drunk and all the build up, I was kinda relieved and excited with the conversation that was to come.

 

So all that night I heard about all the ways and loads off cum he filled and covered her with. I once again came probably 10 times hearing all this. Still even though I was very turned on. I still had to try to somehow explain why what he thanks my married wife is doing this. I told him that we pretty much had an low key open relationship but had both agreed to stay away from people we knew. Sounded good. So from there, when me and the wife would fuck I would bring up her past and bring him up and you could see her change immediately. Either her pussy getting wetter or thrusting her pussy on my cock .

 

After a while I suggested that we invite him to play to see her reaction.  I could tell she was very interested but didn't wanna over play it. Still not telling her what I had done. Well few weeks later,  we had a rare kid free night, and me and the wife were drinking in our backyard alone around  bonfire.  She gets drunk easily and gets wild. Well,, my phone pings and its a text from him. Again this is a several year build up of something that really turned me on , and only intensified after seeing his 9-10 inch porno cock.

 

This was the time to make it happen. I texted him back and told him to come fuck me or her. I told her what I had done and that he was on his way over to fuck her. I was very nervous that she would be mad or would find it weird that I contacted him. Nope, she went inside and changed into only a basically a wife beater that clearly showed her dark nipples.

 

So here's my issue with the cuck experience. 

I'm very turned on by her getting fucked.  But that alpha in me. I'm not interested in the typical cuck experience of sitting in the corner with my cock out while she's getting fucked.  Even if it's a stranger and definitely not with someone I know.  So I told her that he is unaware that I know and thinks I'm passed out in the house. Not sure if it was her being drunk or her just wanting to get his big cock again, she didn't give a fuck. She just said that I'll fuck him in the back of my truck.

 

Lights pull into our drive and she didn't say anything.  She was on a mission to get that cock. So I'm in the garage which looks directly into the drive. We live in the country so it's pretty dark. I had turned on the spotlight that lit up almost to my truck. He was out of his truck and met her at the side of my truck. I could tell he was shocked that she was basically naked. He went right to work. He pulled her shirt up above her tits and went in for what she thought was a hug and grabbed her round ass. . Opened up the back door of my truck and put her on her back and that's the last of the visual I could see clearly. 

 

But they were only 20 ft away so had no problem hearing.  He was eating her pussy from outside the truck and I his pants were down and could see that monster. After only a couple minutes of eating her ***y. I hear her say fuck me. I had never heard her yell in pleasure even close to that loud. After only prolly 3-5 .min of fucking her he pops out. He couldn't last. I thought he would probably cum on her. They said thier quick goodbyes and she walked back to the garage  and  we just take in what just happened.

 

Again it was a very long build up.  My cock was throbbing. I started rubbing her legs and her pussy. She said. Oh yeah. I told him to cum in me. I started leaking cum. She said now it's your turn. We went inside and fucked for hours. I came in her over and over. And we finally passed out. So this was end of July. With that all said and done. We both never wanted a daily or weekly encounter nor would our life's or schedules allow that. So all is normal afterwards. No awkwardness or regrets. 

 

I immediately couldn't stop thinking about it and I was constantly trying to find videos or stories with the same situation as us. I was obsessed  I think with not being able to put a full visual to the encounter.  I was confused to why I was this turned on when I thought of his cock. So after a Fer months I suggested for her birthday that we go for round 2.

 

She was a lil confused on how I could love her and want and let her fuck another guy and especially her ex. And why I didn't wanna be involved or get another cpl we could both enjoy.  And when  you are ***d to explain it and  try to make sense why u wanna see her get fucksd and could not only respect her but love her. It's a hard thing to explain why I get turned on by seeing her pleased by another cock. Fuck I'm confused and wasn't sure myself why I was that turned on by the thought of a cock that I  went that far to contact him with the goal of seeing his cock.  Just a lot of new and confusing feelings. But still cum everyday thinking about his cock in her. And seeing her telling him to fill her full of his cum.

 

Any help on what I'm feeling and and is this common? Sorry for the long post. I'll add a cpl pics of the wife to make up for it. 

[Ind46140]

11 hours ago, Ind46140 said:

So me and my wife have talked about several different scenarios and past experiences prior to getting together.  We tried swinger and adult sites trying to select either a cpl or single male for several years.  Most we chatted were either not our type pr would flake when it came time to meet. I was always interested in hearing and turned on by her past experiences.  Most of which happened when she lived  several states away from where we both grew up and where we currently live.

 

So I would say my interest in the cuckold  fetish came from hearing about her mfm  and being fucked at a party and people saw. But the one that really got me going was her telling me about mutual acquaintance that she fucked several times b4 we got together.  And that he had a massive cock. And was the only guy to make her squirt. Well I began to think about his big cock in her and  knowing that she had experienced and felt a big cock, it became a very frequent cause for me to jack off.  I wanted to see it and see really how big it was.

 

Well one night I had come home from the bar with friends and was very drunk. I was flipping thru social media and saw he was online.  His number was listed in his profile.  I was very nervous about the thought of anyone we knew finding out what were into. So I cropped her face out of several of the nude pics I had of my wife and sent one to start. He immediately responded and asked who I was. Again,  I never had any intention in telling him it was her, and definitely not saying it was me trying to get a pic of his cock. So I responded back and told him it wasn't important and just enjoy the pics I was sending  and that he should reward me with a few of him.

 

So I sent a few more pics and he was really digging for a name or at least a first initial. Yeah that juvenile.  But I had obsessed about this for too long. I just replied,  and said an old friend. He said well one name came to mind when I saw her tits. My wife had a full D  fake tits and big and really dark nipples for a white girl. He immediately said her name. I was scared af. I said no. He dropped a few more names. I finally said it's not important.  Send a few more pics of my wife. And said no more til I see him. He immediately  responded with a couple pics of his cock.

 

I just wannt say. I've never had any thoughts of a guy. I've always considered myself as an alpha male. I was special ***s for 8 years.  Ok, so that's out of the way. I opened up his pic and my cock started throbbing and I just saw my wife taking that in every way he wanted.  I came prolly 10 times in a short time that night.  Finally I passed out. Oh and my wife is unaware that I was contacting him acting like her. So the next morning I woke up early and hung over when the wife and kids woke. I completely forgot about what I had done. A few hours later, my phone dings. I look.

 

It's a text from him. It said I'm pretty certain this is my wifes name.  Wtf did I do. I responded,  with I'm not sure who that is and it's certainly not my name. He went back to wanting a name and all that. Even with the *** that I had, a few days later and still very turned on by the thought of knowing how good he made my wife cum. I sent a few more pics and this went on for a few months.and I became more turned on and was to the point where I wanted very badly to just say that it was indeed my wife and and move on to hearing him talk about all the ways he fucked her.

 

Well , the *** of being exposed and him telling in our pretty small home town what were into or him showing people her pics scared me. Well some time goes by and I had been at  an annual fantasy football draft. And got pretty drunk again.  Well once home I sent a few more pics of the wife and wad sure I had cut out anything noticeable.  Well being drunk I missed one that looked like the back of her head and just sent it. Immediately he said I knew it was my wife. I looked at the pic again and very clear shows the side of her face and could easily tell its her. Being drunk and all the build up, I was kinda relieved and excited with the conversation that was to come.

 

So all that night I heard about all the ways and loads off cum he filled and covered her with. I once again came probably 10 times hearing all this. Still even though I was very turned on. I still had to try to somehow explain why what he thanks my married wife is doing this. I told him that we pretty much had an low key open relationship but had both agreed to stay away from people we knew. Sounded good. So from there, when me and the wife would fuck I would bring up her past and bring him up and you could see her change immediately. Either her pussy getting wetter or thrusting her pussy on my cock .

 

After a while I suggested that we invite him to play to see her reaction.  I could tell she was very interested but didn't wanna over play it. Still not telling her what I had done. Well few weeks later,  we had a rare kid free night, and me and the wife were drinking in our backyard alone around  bonfire.  She gets drunk easily and gets wild. Well,, my phone pings and its a text from him. Again this is a several year build up of something that really turned me on , and only intensified after seeing his 9-10 inch porno cock.

 

This was the time to make it happen. I texted him back and told him to come fuck me or her. I told her what I had done and that he was on his way over to fuck her. I was very nervous that she would be mad or would find it weird that I contacted him. Nope, she went inside and changed into only a basically a wife beater that clearly showed her dark nipples.

 

So here's my issue with the cuck experience. 

I'm very turned on by her getting fucked.  But that alpha in me. I'm not interested in the typical cuck experience of sitting in the corner with my cock out while she's getting fucked.  Even if it's a stranger and definitely not with someone I know.  So I told her that he is unaware that I know and thinks I'm passed out in the house. Not sure if it was her being drunk or her just wanting to get his big cock again, she didn't give a fuck. She just said that I'll fuck him in the back of my truck.

 

Lights pull into our drive and she didn't say anything.  She was on a mission to get that cock. So I'm in the garage which looks directly into the drive. We live in the country so it's pretty dark. I had turned on the spotlight that lit up almost to my truck. He was out of his truck and met her at the side of my truck. I could tell he was shocked that she was basically naked. He went right to work. He pulled her shirt up above her tits and went in for what she thought was a hug and grabbed her round ass. . Opened up the back door of my truck and put her on her back and that's the last of the visual I could see clearly. 

 

But they were only 20 ft away so had no problem hearing.  He was eating her pussy from outside the truck and I his pants were down and could see that monster. After only a couple minutes of eating her ***y. I hear her say fuck me. I had never heard her yell in pleasure even close to that loud. After only prolly 3-5 .min of fucking her he pops out. He couldn't last. I thought he would probably cum on her. They said thier quick goodbyes and she walked back to the garage  and  we just take in what just happened.

 

Again it was a very long build up.  My cock was throbbing. I started rubbing her legs and her pussy. She said. Oh yeah. I told him to cum in me. I started leaking cum. She said now it's your turn. We went inside and fucked for hours. I came in her over and over. And we finally passed out. So this was end of July. With that all said and done. We both never wanted a daily or weekly encounter nor would our life's or schedules allow that. So all is normal afterwards. No awkwardness or regrets. 

 

I immediately couldn't stop thinking about it and I was constantly trying to find videos or stories with the same situation as us. I was obsessed  I think with not being able to put a full visual to the encounter.  I was confused to why I was this turned on when I thought of his cock. So after a Fer months I suggested for her birthday that we go for round 2.

 

She was a lil confused on how I could love her and want and let her fuck another guy and especially her ex. And why I didn't wanna be involved or get another cpl we could both enjoy.  And when  you are ***d to explain it and  try to make sense why u wanna see her get fucksd and could not only respect her but love her. It's a hard thing to explain why I get turned on by seeing her pleased by another cock. Fuck I'm confused and wasn't sure myself why I was that turned on by the thought of a cock that I  went that far to contact him with the goal of seeing his cock.  Just a lot of new and confusing feelings. But still cum everyday thinking about his cock in her. And seeing her telling him to fill her full of his cum.

 

Any help on what I'm feeling and and is this common? Sorry for the long post. I'll add a cpl pics of the wife to make up for it. 

Anyway????

[Zela]

I’m no expert and at the end of the day, you can ask 20 people and you’ll get 20 different answers. But you may be overthinking this. It’s a kink just line any ither kink. You can chose to psychoanalyze it or enjoy it with the consent of your wife. It seems to me that you derive excitment from pushing boundaries (ex-special ***s, right?!) and you did that. Then there’s the excitment of “breaking marriage vows” which have been traditionally engrained in our minds that one musn’t do that - another boundary pushed. You see where I’m going with this?!
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Provided everything is open and consentful, why should it be bad? Anyway, just my 2-cents for now.
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PS: the stag/vixen story is sexy AF by the way. This is not exactly a cuckolding situation.