Undeniable Need

June 1

Poor Baby. Her mind was a maelstrom of emotions. Head and heart in a vicious battle. Hatred. Betrayal. ***. Emptiness. Longing. Love.

She fought to suppress the latter for her former Daddy. It ***ed her that those feelings still existed. She had tried to lock them away. Part of her hated herself for still loving him. She fought daily with that turmoil. Though as hard as she tried she couldn't deny what remained inside her. The more she got upset about events, the clearer it was that she was not over Him. Whatever *** had brought them together was still exerting influence over her.

She often found herself drifting and thinking back to the good times, and there had been many. It was perfect until it wasn't. And here the good memories turned bad. She felt her heart ripped from her chest. Again.

For as awful as being lied to and deceived was, did that outweigh all the good? The way He made her feel. Loved. Protected. Wanted. Needed. Important. Wet. She smiled at that. She was constantly wet when they messaged. Even just seeing 'typing' made her pussy flutter and ache. The need to change her knickers when they were soaked with her uncontrollable desire for Him was undeniable. Even now, she felt the ache between her legs. Powerless to stop her hand migrating to her panties. Her throbbing clit screaming like a homing beacon. She fucking hated it but He was going to give her yet another orgasm. Damn Him!

He missed her. He needed her. He wanted her. A want so great that it manifested into a need. He had royally fucked up. Lied to her. Broken her and her trust. Instead of talking to her and asking her he had lied.

One thing he knew for absolute certain. More certain than night follows day was that he knew what his lies had done to her, he knew what losing her had done to him and there was no way on God's green earth that he would repeat that grave mistake. He would never put either of them through that again. He only needed the chance to talk with her. To let her be angry. Focus on her feelings. Not his.

He would give anything and everything to have that dynamic again. To have her back in his arms and his life. She is the one that can make him whole. He is the one that can give her back to herself. To make the world go away for her. To make her feel nothing when she needs to. To make her feel alive when she needs to. And to make her feel like the most special and loved girl ever all the time.