- I'll speak up about 1 thing. I've always had a high sex drive. (Early 20s hormones) When my husband and I were on different shifts it was particularly hard, so I bought toys. I always wash them before and after use, yet I found one with fecal matter on it. At that time, my back door was OFF Read more… LIMITS, so I was baffled. I didn't use my toys after that, but I did keep an eye on them. After a month of sexual frustration I finally asked my husband about it. He lied about using my toys. I decided to go on a gay man hunt to ask questions. Boy did I get information from those sexy men. I learned that I had a kink about pegging. My husband made me feel like it's too shameful. A divorce and years later I got to wear a strapon and peg a man. I love it too much to be ashamed.

Can't agree more. Well said.

Husband's do it. Yeah, I know it's different. In some dynamics, clearly not the same as what everyone else here is talking about, the Dom doesn't take her *** from her. He tells her to pay a bill, she shows proof. He tells her to buy groceries, she buys groceries. He keeps an eye on her Read more… financially to Take Care of her. Its not about the exchange of ***.

Impulsive behavior in a submissive brat is a thing. Some Doms will take over their *** to manage it for them since the sub won't be responsible on her own. She might only take care of bills and necessary things but not herself.. OR she impulse buys things she shouldn't. The Dom takes on the Read more… responsibility FOR the sub. It has a name I just can't think of what it is.

I would write, "Do something nice for yourself" on a visa gift card preloaded with $100.

Leather cuffs on a strong man's arm. Preferably with a D ring attachment.

I'm the opposite of @Chevi86 in my daily life, I have to submit to the will of others throughout my. I've been controlled for so long that I've developed a dominant side. I want to be set free to demand what I want.

Breach of trust. You did right by ending it. She can't have her cake and eat it too.

I have some cathartic recommendations...
1. Gather her things that's left with you. Put them in a box.
2. Go through each item and think of the memories you shared. Let yourself cry. Bleed them tears.
3. Write a goodbye letter to her (don't give it to her)
4. Wait 3 days. Day 1 is to acknowledge Read more… she's gone. Day 2 is for being angry. Day 3 is planning for a better future.
5. Toss the box of her things in the trash, re-read the letter, then burn it. Say goodbye verbally (alone)
This is a great start. You'll need to focus on self-discovery now. Good luck.

It seems to me that she's not making you feel desperate enough. If she can get you so wrapped up in what the two of you are doing, your self-awareness should fall away. You'll beg with such need in your voice, in your body language, that it will please her. It also involves trust. You must be able Read more… to trust that she'll catch you when you fall... (So to speak)