I've had rly bad sex my whole life too. It sucks. Took me awhile to figure out what I needed. I know it's scary to see yourself changing especially when it comes to you being more ***. But if I may say, if it feels good enjoy it just for you. Let them love on you. If it gets overwhelming you can Read more… always come back here and talk it out, which I generally find helpful.

I have the same issue. I really shied away from the softer side of things initially and am not entirely comfy with it now. I think it was a mixture of not feeling very good about myself at the time and not wanting to be intimate with anyone in that way. Between therapy and finding partners I like Read more… and trust I've slowly started getting into it. I've even requested it a couple times.

I'm curious about online events. Anyone know of any of those they'd recommend?