I'm looking for a perfect connection... Some magic... :) So I'll try to put it all out there. I am intense and a tad complicated. Very shy and introvert... Over-over-thinking... Until someone special presses the right buttons, says the right words, sets me on fire, makes me trust him... And then I am not that shy anymore... And probably not thinking as much... I love pleasure... My mind needs to be touched as much as my body does. I am a BBW although I don't find myself beautiful. I have body image issues... Yeah I have pretty nice breasts thought and I must say that they are a part of my body that I like. I've lost some weight and find myself with hanging parts of it that I find totally disgusting... I am ashamed of how I look... But I still crave to feel sexy and be touched and pleasured and taken care of... I just got out of a very toxic... abusive... relationship that lasted for many years. I am just starting to find myself again and explore that... very sexual... side of me that was hidden... gone even... for all those years. I am submissive but still feel weird and a little crazy about that. I find caring, confident, intelligent and dominant men exhilarating... I would love to meet someone special who is not married or in a relationship... Not that I am looking for a romantic affair... I am not... Just that I would really like for you to be available, to spend the night, to go on a weekend getaway... The kind of weekend in a remote location where we fuck, play, cuddle, fuck more... all weekend long... I have an intense *** of rejection and you will need to convince me that I won't... gross you out... I know... I know... complicated and intense... Very insecure... But good, sweet and genuine... kinky... and I believe kinda sexy in my own way... I love to be taught, cared for... I crave to be cared for badly actually... after all those years with someone who didn't... and I am very caring too... I love to please... I enjoy touching, exploring and pleasuring with my hands, fingers, lips and mouth... and feeling with all my senses... I can cum many, many times... I've been told I am kinda special that way, and very lucky haha... I have to be grateful to my body for that :) and I am insatiable... :) You'll drive me crazy (and probably addicted to you) if you enjoy getting into my mind... If you know just how to touch me and what to say... If you can take me, guide me, teach me... Into that ecstasy state where I don't think anymore and lose myself in overwhelming arousal, bliss and intense pleasure... If I trust you enough to surrender that way... If doing exactly that turns you on and gives You pleasure... You WILL get all of me... :) I am smart, but I know that I don't know shit. I am open minded, childish, crazy... I smoke pot... I would love to have a psychedelic mushrooms erotic experience... I love being new to things, with someone who is experienced... I see beauty where other's don't... I have grey silver hair but it's kinda cool... I wear converses and I am not into high heals, but I love fancy lace bras... :) You might have to work hard to make me talk and convince me to meet you... I might be needy and I do have issues... Well we all do don't we... But I have pretty low self esteem and I am still healing from being put down, yelled at and gaslighted... And staying there for all the wrong reasons... for way too long. And if you think that it is stupid or weird for a girl who got out of that kind of relationship to be on here being submissive looking for a dominant kind of man... You just don't understand. But hey lets be positive here... Maybe you are intrigued by me and could be that special person who will turn me into that sex goddess I think I can be... :)
