Deleted Member Posted February 5, 2022 Posted February 5, 2022 Shame. For far too long Iāve carried the burden of shame, It was like a disease eating away at my soul. I was ashamed of my body, ashamed of carrying extra weight, ashamed of not having a flat firm stomach,Ā withĀ TV and social media confirming my failures to achieve perfection. I was also ashamed of my lack of education and blaming my ***age self for the part she played in this.Ā I was ashamed of the daughter I was, quick to tell people how vile I was to bring up.Ā I was ashamed for myĀ marriage failing for not conforming to the social construct of the perfect wife. I was ashamed of things that Iāve said and done whilst ***, ashamed to explore my sexuality for *** of being labelled, shame had a hold on me.Ā Until recently! Iāve learnt to love my body!Ā every curve, scar and stretch mark. I love my tummy! it shows the marks of having carried my babies the scares from havingĀ Ā had an organ removed to save a life. Itās amazing!! I celebrate my hips and butt Iāve tried to hide for most part of my life.Ā Iāve forgiven my younger self,Ā thereās so much of my past self I donāt resonate with anymore, but I love her just the same.Ā She was growing and battling though things no one that age shouldāve had to deal with,Ā She was doing her best the only way she knew how.Ā She fought hard to get me here and for that I thank her. I realise now I was a good wife and the failure would have been to have stayed in a marriage that was making us both unhappy.Ā Iām embracing my sexuality! setting boundaries now shame no longer has a hold.Ā Iāve made the decision to no longer use alcohol as a crutch and forgive myself for doing so in the past.Ā Ā Iām a woman, daughter, ***, auntie and best of all a mother. Iām not ashamed to be any of these things or what itās done to my body.Ā I love who Iāve become and Iām no longer ashamed of the path Iāve taken and things Iāve done to get here. Self love and forgiveness have gotten me to where I am today and looking forward to continuing my growthšš»šĀ I hope this inspires people to practice self love and forgiveness. Donāt hang your head in shame be proud of who you are and what got you here. Burn Shame! Quite literally, Ā write it down and then burn it. It no longer serves youšš»
Deleted Member Posted February 5, 2022 Author Posted February 5, 2022 Good for you pinky, that's just the way it should be xx be proud of who you are , theres no shame in being your self and so what if that dosnt conform to normal world, normal is only a perception formed by others that dont understand what they see, I wish you all the luck in the world, you go girl x x
Gh**** Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 hey.. alot of courage to say this aloud. is good to that you did, I am emvlous how brave your are and I need to find my own strength to love my own self and ignoring the social contrast. I have also felt locked and unable to breath, but slowly being here talking to some welling people who appreciate the my being around them has slowly put some straight back in me and today society. just as fire gives rise to new stronger growth in the forest, everytime you burn out, you have a chance you grow stronger
Deleted Member Posted February 6, 2022 Author Posted February 6, 2022 Wow!! This hit hard! Congratulations on your courage to do this for yourselfā¦ I hope to one day be able to have the same courage š„°š„° youāre amazing š¤©
allshookup Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 What a very positive thing to read. Thank you. It made me stop and think
Jolene79 Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 Love this beautiful,I felt all those wordsš
Deleted Member Posted February 6, 2022 Author Posted February 6, 2022 This is so beautifully written,Ā the strength and power in your vulnerability and honesty is awe inspiring š thank you so much for sharing ā¤šā¤ Ā š„š§š„
Deleted Member Posted February 6, 2022 Author Posted February 6, 2022 Such beautiful, courageous words spoken from the heart ā¤ļøĀ thank you for sharing š
Deleted Member Posted February 6, 2022 Author Posted February 6, 2022 Thank you all for your kind wordsā¤ļøšš»
SK73 Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 Well done you for sharing with us all. You are so strong and powerful. š xx
Bathblonde Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 Beautifully written pinky much respect and admiration to you šš Phenomenal womanĀ
ol**** Posted February 6, 2022 Posted February 6, 2022 Wonderful Pinky, very well thought out and poignant advice.
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