Am I bisexual?

July 20, 2018

I think I'm bisexual, like without a doubt, but I have never been with a woman before. I think I've been into girls after I started watching porn and a lot of it is lesbian porn. I sometimes prefer to watch lesbian bdsm porn bcos they are less intimidating than a man is. (I think this has to do with my past sexual ***.) I have had lesbian fantasies my whole life, even as a kid. Although I definitely like men more, I think I like girls too. But not in a everyday kind of way, just in kinky ways.

My daddy will be with his primary sub the next time we meet. I told him about my nervousness of it bcos I've never been with a woman. He told me not to worry... but I can't help it! Now I'm seriously questioning if I'm even bi and have I been lying to myself?

July 20, 2018

Try it. Don’t label it. If you like it then you like it. Don’t stress. You won’t be attracted to every woman you meet any more than you are to every man. Don’t *** it but enjoy it if it turns you on. Threesomes are also a very different dynamic to one on one. X

July 21, 2018

Maybe you are bi but maybe you want a woman on your own terms? Maybe in that dynamic you would be the dominant role?

What turns you on when you are watching lesbian porn?

July 21, 2018

52 minutes ago, Goddard said:

Maybe you are bi but maybe you want a woman on your own terms? Maybe in that dynamic you would be the dominant role?

What turns you on when you are watching lesbian porn?

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I know I'm definitely a submissive at heart but I also know I have a domineering Mistress side too and that has been coming out a lot more recently. My biggest fantasy would be to be owned completely by someone (inslaved externally but also inslaved internally on a mental, & almost a spiritual level). We'd live together and someday he would pick out a slave for me. I have thought about what my ideal woman is like (physically): a petite blonde who's young and new to everything. I'd show her what it's like to be dominated, but do it compassionately. I ordered a book a few months ago about femdom and how to dominate a woman (it's called "The Mistress Manual: The Good Girl’s Guide to Female Dominance" by Mistress Lorelei Powers if anyone is wondering). I've only scanned the book but it's very interesting; I think I'm going to order it on audio since i misplaced it somewhere and can't seem to find it.

Edited July 21, 2018 by candyfruitfly

July 21, 2018

Well it seems as though we may have gotten to the crux of that one.

I can imagine that being in service to someone would also benefit from something just for them too. And I can totally get why you'd want someone to care for, teach, nurture, protect and discipline etc especially in light of an abusive past.

You just need to pursue your desire and not settle for or deviate to second best.