Dominant girlfriend from my past who was a sex worker has shaped my kinks

[ChasteMale]

I have never been very good at approaching women and normally make a hash of it so at the age of 24 I was in pub and late on a Saturday with a mate whne this couple who were arguing suddenly started hitting one another! This lead to the guy being dragged out and the woman who was crying left behind. She was very drunk and went up to the bar to order a drink an dthe bar staff told her no and it might be best if she left!

I was nearby and staring at her as she was very beautiful and I wanted to approach her but me nerves got the better of me. I needn't of worried as she came up to me and said did I know of anywhere else for a drink and I said yes and so we left together! We had a few more drinks and she explained taht she was living in her now ex boyfriends flat and so was therefore homeless.

I agreed that she could stay at mine until she found somewhere!

She stayed for four years and we lived a kind of fake life as a couple but the truth was very different.

She was working in a hostess bar in Mayfair and met a man who suggested she could earn much more as an escort and this she became. Most weekends she was away or in some hotel in London but as time went on she often used the flat! This is where I discovered taht I truly was submissive as as much as I fancied her and actually loved her she didn't. She was very dominant over me and at times quite harsh like she held a party for her 'boss' at the flat and she said can I pretend to be her gay flatmate. So I did on quite a few occasions.

My flat which was in social housing was only a one bed so she had the bedroom and I was on the sofabed. I rarely had visitors but one friend could not believe that we were not sleeping in the same bed so I lied and said I snore and it keeps her awake.

I still wonder what was going on in my head as she was I imagne earning a lot but I never charged her rent! She did buy a washing machine which at the time was a luxury.

Anyway I adored her and I often masturbated with her on my mind and would steal her knickers to turn me on. She did find a pair in my dirty linen basket and asked why and I went bright red and she would tease me about that in front of people too!

 

Why am I writing this? I think because she shaped me. I was single until I was 45 then met a woman online who is actually similar in many ways in that she is dominant but only over me as was my other relationship. I do wear a chastity cage but the truth is it does not bother her as I was never very into intercourse and so she ueses toys! Must sound weird!!

I still sniff knickers in private and I have managed to keep that a secret.

 

I just wanted to put that part of my life out there as it shaped me and i still think about that time a lot.

 

Oh and although we are not in touch I am still friends with her family who never knew we were not girlfriend and boyfriend.

 

 

 

 

[Deleted Member]

did you attend a boys only school?

[slavewife]

53 minutes ago, fluffybunny said:

did you attend a boys only school?

No all girls school

[ChasteMale]

1 hour ago, fluffybunny said:

did you attend a boys only school?

I did yes. My mum wondered if that played a part in my nervousness around women

[Deleted Member]

I only asked as my *** is a teacher and she thinks same sex schools are not a good idea and she knows a guy who is like you.

I have to ask but what did you get out of the reltionship?

 

[ChasteMale]

I am certain it played a part yes. I was an only child and we lived in a street with hardly any other kids. I find women so interesting too.

We did have a lot of fun and went on holidays together but I did often wish she was mine but she was highly sexed and I cold never of satisfied her. We went on a boating holiday in France and one twon we morred up in was stunning. We went into the town and picked up some bits of food etc and stopped ia bar. Had some nibbles and the barman was really hitting on my 'girlfriend' and it then occurred to me that we didn't even look like a couple!

[Deleted Member]

So there was no sex?

 

Is that the same now with your wife or partner?

[ChasteMale]

9 hours ago, slavewife said:

No all girls school

Did that have an effect on you sexually?

[ChasteMale]

27 minutes ago, fluffybunny said:

So there was no sex?

 

Is that the same now with your wife or partner?

No although she would tease me and would say would you like to wank and I would say yes and I would go to the bathroom.

When I met my wife she had been in an abusive reltionship and so I was very caring to her and gentle which she felt she needed and we married very quickly. You may find this hard to believe but I have never had intercourse with her as I find I get so nervous that I remain limp.

However she was very understanding. I have used a strapon but that was not ideal so she bought various vibrators and a rabbit and I would lay with her as she played.

Then I would go to the bathroom and wank. We have drifted intimately and she now does it on her own

[Deleted Member]

So no sex with your wife?? Just masturbation? 

Why does she not do it or have you ever been sacked off?