First time when me and my ex sub(Kris) started exploring bdsm

June 18

She was curious. She never experienced anything aggressive, much less rough. She enjoyed talking about it and we would occasionally push boundaries. Her favorite sexual position was when I pinned her down, placed her legs on my chest and prevented her from moving. I'd hold her by her arms pinning her to the bed/floor/table/ ottoman/etc.
She knew I enjoyed rougher play. She also knew I respected her boundaries and never pushed anything on her.

Then her curiosity began to grow. She was talking with some of her friends in the ddlg community. One little in particular was always excited to share about how her Daddy played rough. Kris grew very curious about getting hurt during sex.

One evening when we were going to watch cartoons, Kris asked if we could do something different. She said she wanted to watch some bdsm porn with me. Nothing too hard. I pushed back. We had a routine. Was she being bratty? Was she being genuine?
Her friend convinced her to try watching bdsm porn with me to gauge my reaction. I decided to go along with her request. We started watching something mild... gentle spanking, ***d orgasm, restraints. She didn't think this was a big deal and her curiosity grew.

I stopped the experiment before I got too excited. I didn't want her to feel pressured. She was innocent to this stuff and I knew if she thought I was excited then she'd want to play tough in order to please me.
We decided to schedule an evening every other week where we would watch bdsm porn. I let her pick out the videos on a site I used to enjoy.
We cuddled as she watched a woman - bound, gagged, and wearing an anal plug with a long tail - be led around on a leash. She thought that was strange so I suggested a different video ... one where the woman was bent over and bound with her ass exposed and at the mercy of her trainer.
Kris was nervously excited. She grabbed me harder as a flogger was used on the woman's ass. I asked Kris if she was okay. She said she felt safe with me next to her and she loved that I was willing to do this. I gave her a peck in the forehead "you're my good girl, princess"
Kris smiled and kept watching. When the woman had a large dildo inserted in her ass, Kris looked away until I told her the woman enjoyed it. Kris was mesmerized when the woman began screaming with pleasure and her legs began to shake. Then she was ***d until it appeared she was going to pass out.
I attempted to remain calm but having my princess next to me (no bra or panties) in her pjs while she occasionally brushed against my cock ... made that impossible.

A total of three men with horse cocks fucked this woman while she was bound and ***. One reason this is my favorite site was because they interviewed the women after. This allowed Kris to understand it was all about the women. The submissives called the shots. They set the boundaries. They could always stop.
Kris slowly reached into my pants and gently grabbed me
"oh Daddy. You do like this" this increased her desire to want to experiment.
Kris confessed she was conflicted as a part of her wanted me to gently spank and possibly lightly *** her, but she also felt dirty for wanting that.
Very rarely would Kris enjoy being on top. It was more of a control issue (she didn't like being in charge) than a purely physical one.
A few nights pass and we were about to have sex. I had Kris get on top and she was a bit surprised. While inside of her I held her legs down and told her to let me know if I do too much. She had a momentary look of panic then relaxed.
I sat up and gently pulled her hair while sucking her breasts. Kris was on top but wasn't controlling the fun. She also has the ability to stop. I began nibbling on her nipples... occasionally biting gently. Kris was very excited by this. I released her hair and used both hands to pinch her nipples.

I pulled her back with me and kissed her. I whispered into her ear "that's my good girl". Kris began breathing heavy. I wrapped my arms around her to keep her still while thrusting myself in her from the bottom. I could feel she was on the verge of an intense orgasm. I tapped her ass with my right hand while holding her down. Then I used my left hand.
Her hips were moving and I couldn't stop her. I pushed her back up to riding position. I am reached up and grabbed her throat with my right hand while attempting to hold her hips to me with my left.
Her body began to shake and I felt her warm fluid gush down my legs, hips, and balls. I came so hard and ***ful that she orgasmed again. She collapsed on top of me and sobbed as we embraced. She remained on top of me until her bodily fluids began to feel cold.
When she caught her breath she was embarrassed and asked if she urinated on me. She had not. It was her first time squirting and she loved that it was with me. We cuddled silently the rest of the evening. The following morning our relationship felt more intense, deeper, and her desire to serve grew exponentially.