Feeling anxious

[co****]

In my 59's until now,62 I feel like people are putting me aside and all the time I just want a permanent sexual relationship with a Woman who will be my Dominant Mistress ❓💋

[Ph****]

I am going through this situation. 18 year relationship where I've been manipulated and cheated on countless times. Yet she is all that I have known my whole adult life. I know there is so much in me to explore now

[th****]

Run it!

[Va****]

Sorry to hear Philly. Went through the same.. it made me mentally self destructive I went though a period where whenever we broke up I'd be on my twist like every night and day. I got this obsession with being a bull from it. Like I really had the gift of gab, and I worked evenings on an ARMY base. The craziest day i was with 4 different women
She was elsewhere .. called the cops on me and got a restraining order said she was staying at her friend's so she couldn't be with. 500.ft of my house. Lol

[Va****]

As fun and wild as it was using my gifts to get what I want I regret it. Always collateral damage.

[Va****]

See I'm very deviant. I've in the taboo. IT was emasculating a bit... But her sneakinesa and deviance turned me on. Almost became of a game of one upsmanship. When her and I engaged, my brain triggered a sexual reaction. It got very physical like I was trying to break hern in two. HaD to make my mark

[su****]

If I could, I would take off on a trip across the country or the world. No driving, just train-hopping, horse whispering, rollerblading, and boat-hopping along as a pleased. If I wasn't so scared I'd die out there. Maybe I want my life to be more like the adventure novels I used to read as a kid and less like I'm stuck indoors working 40 hours a week on school to be later stuck indoors working 40 hours a week on a career to retire (?) or not but life is totally a scam. The first 15-20 years or so are free, and that's how they getcha! Then it's pay-to-play, and I don't remember signing any cosmic contract about that!

[di****]

I strongly believe that by the time we hit our 40s, we have entered some degree of deconstruction and unlearning of conditionings and societal expectations which has a tendency to lead us on a self-exploration journey of sorts. I wouldn't say that we have been living a lie, but I would say that we have not been living authentically to ourselves. Much of that is because of conditioning and people-pleasing that we have experienced, be it in influence of ***rs, of belief, in childhood through adolescence, parental guidance and modeling, entertainment, culture...literally everything plays an influential role and sometimes it takes 4 decades of life experience to wade through it enough to start finding ourselves within it. This is an opportune moment to embrace who you are, explore, and reframe. While it can sometimes feel like betrayal to see conditionings with greater clarity, that awakening from it is freeing. Only we get to define ourselves and that sentiment is so very personal and individual and so, so vague. Feel the saltiness and grief for time elapsed and embrace the lessons you otherwise wouldn't have had the insight into with fullness. There's no way around it, only through it. May your journey be ever eye opening and soul meeting.

[Je****]

Sounds normal to me. I'm always questioning things. I'm on some other adult websites... The way that people react to other people disgust me at times. People react intake things way too seriously or personally and overreact... Seems to me that these people that are overreacting have some serious problems... They want to get all defensive way too quickly. Then they turn around and attack somebody else because they misunderstood and took things the wrong way because they reacted the wrong way... This has been my latest disgust with people... The older I get, the more I realize that people disgust me and I want nothing to do with them... It's been leaving me wondering why I'm on these websites. I don't want to meet a bunch of crying, pathetic little girls who want to play victim at every turn... They can try to defend themselves but it doesn't go over well...
Anyways, this has been my latest issue with these websites and people. I think people go in and out of phases... Especially today's society... Just don't put yourself in a position you may regret because the present seems good...

[Deleted Member]

I like that you are questioning monk_oh, that’s a signal right there. Life is short and it pays to take stock once in a while, see where you are, where you’ve been and indeed where you want to go next. Take charge of your destiny, indulge your senses, experience all that attracts you, consume the universe because it exists for each of us.
I would only advise to do so with integrity and honesty (to you and others both).
Rule #1….Be happy
Rule #2…refer to rule #1

[lo****]

I have been a Masochist Submissive for over 20 years. I don't go Thur phases it's who I am. I love self. I love everything about me. Yes I have made choices that were not the greatest being on dating apps, I am only human like the rest of us. It saddens me to see a beautiful lifestyle only used for just the kinks of bdsm. It happens thou. We would all be much more happier and enlightened if we were honest about our search. You never know.