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I want to give myself a birthday party, and have never celebrated one before, even as a kid.
I never really wanted one when I was older, then realized I was robbing myself of a nice celebration of life.

So as I've embarked my life path of sexual exploration, and being good to myself and loving myself more. I want to experience a FFM or something of the nature.

I'm honestly not sure how this thing goes, or works, probably why I'm doing this as a post.
The initiating and finding interested people part is where I fall short in knowledge.